I can feel the urge.
It is time for me to splurge.
As emotions, surge.
This year, I have started doodling things I’m struggling with or emotions that I am feeling. I joined a wonderful group Heartwork Journaling University. It is focused on self care and introspection as you process emotions. I am using it as a tool as I work with the Lord, and a Christian Counselor, on inner healing. I am finding that this combination is really helping me to get past the surface emotional walls I’ve built.
This doodle shows my struggle with a borderline addiction to shopping. I really want to be a better steward with the money that the Lord has blessed me with, but I have a tendency to overspend. I rationalize it by saying that I still tithe and I am still able to pay my bills. But, I shop when I’m tired, stressed, lonely and frustrated.
As a recovering alcoholic and cocaine addict, I know the signs. I know the pitfalls. And I know the dangers of going down this road. So, I decided that if I got my shopaholic tendencies down in black and white on paper then I couldn’t deny it anymore. It is right here where my eyes can see!
*Technically this is not a traditonal haiku because it rhymes and it has no seasonal reference. But it does have a 5/7/5 syllable count per line. It’s not a Katauta either because of the rhyming. I totally took creative license. See Poetry Forms for more information on poems.
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